ETC: Week 40

Hello friends!

I hope all is well! This past week, we made it to 40 weeks! It’s very bittersweet because I am very happy baby girl is fully cooked, but I’m also very anxious to meet her already!

We had a rather busy week and even had some visitors, but still, no baby!

Our 40-week weekend was beautiful; warm and filled with sunshine! Saturday we ran our weekly errands and Sunday we didn’t move until about 1pm. After relaxing all morning, we decided to go on a long walk. We walked down to the lakefront path and took a stroll through Andersonville on the way home. It was nice to reminisce along my old running path. Once Naomi is here and old enough to be in the jogging stroller, she will quickly become well acquainted with that path as well!

I worked from home this week which was extremely stress relieving. Not having to commute on crowded public transportation or worry about my escape route from downtown to up north if labor were to start was a blessing. Also, not having to try and fit in to office maternity clothes was pretty nice. At this point, a few maternity items still fit because they are stretchy, but are they by no means comfortable.

My mom and sister also came to visit this week. Unfortunately for them, when they booked the trip, they had planned to spend time with the baby since it was technically 2 days passed my due date that they would arrive. Joke was on all of us because, Naomi never made her grand entrance into the world.

It was nice to see them both one last time without a baby though. We went to Homeslice pizza one night and Xoco another night. Two places we wouldn’t have been able to check out with a newborn. We also stopped and walked around Oz park. Did you know, the statues can talk to you?!?! You enter a website on your phone then Dorothy or Tin Man will call you and talk to you for a minute or two. It’s a neat idea and I can’t wait to take Naomi to see them, once she’s old enough to understand the hype.

My mom and sister left at the end of the week but booked another stay the first weekend in May. They will be guaranteed to meet Naomi this next time around!

It was also our precious Pumbaa’s birthday this week! He is 7 and I cannot believe where the time went. I adopted Pumbaa when I moved to Whitewater for college and since then, he’s become such an important part of our family. I hope he loves Naomi as much as he loves us. It may take some getting used to, but he’s a cuddly lover so I have faith in him.

We made it the entire week, everyday asking ourselves ‘is today the day?’ We’ve tried nearly every home remedy people suggest and have answered the “where is she” or “how are you feeling” question at least 55 million times (little to no exaggeration on that estimated number). I’m fully convinced that all of these “at home labor inducing tricks” only work if baby is ready and Naomi is just not ready yet.

It’s definitely bittersweet going past your due date. Yes, I am so happy she’s fully developed in my belly, but we are anxiously awaiting her arrival. There’s a sense of frustration that kicks in when you wake up in the morning and realize it’s time to get up for work but you haven’t had any contractions and today may not be the day. However, it’s a blessing to continue feeling her movements. Soon, she will only be able to kick me from the outside 🙂

Currently, I am 41 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Our next update WILL have a baby update because I will be induced at the end of the week if she doesn’t come out on her own. I personally think she just wanted to wait for the month of May because Te’s birthday is also in May; so we have a serious daddy’s girl on our hands! 🙂

We cannot wait to meet our little bundle and I cannot wait to be done with pregnancy! We’ve got quite an exciting week ahead – Stay tuned!!

Until next time..

ETC: T-30 days


We are so close! In less than 30 days we will be Bates, party of 3!

Looking ahead, since we aren’t sure when our little girl will make her grand appearance, I’m going to try and give an update every week. Don’t hold me to it, but I’ll try my best 🙂

For this post, join me as I take a look at back at our 8th month of pregnancy.



Warning, this was a crazy busy week for us! For our 1 year anniversary, Te bought me tickets to a bread baking class. I was super excited because I’ve always wanted to go to a couple’s cooking class! We learned how to make sourdough bread and once everything came out of the oven, the instructor pointed out a loaf that was ‘perfect’. Low and behold, it was Te’s 🙂 It was also pretty ‘punny’ that we had our bread bun in the oven while I also have a ‘bun in the oven’ 🙂

Next on our list, we drove to Milwaukee to pick up a stroller. Also, I met with my long time friend Jenny and my sister for brunch. It was so nice to catch up!

Another thing we did was attend a home buying class! Redfin hosted a free class where they provided dinner and some tips for first time buyers. It was eye opening and left us feeling optimistic about *someday* buying our own humble abode.

Also this week, we went to our first Chicago Blackhawks game! It was magical 🙂 We have now been to every major Chicago sporting event (yes, including the Chicago Fire and the Chicago Wolves). The atmosphere at the Blackhawks game was unreal – I think it’s my new favorite type of event! We saw some friends at the game and were able to catch up with them a bit, which added to the excitement of the evening!

Believe it or not, we ALSO had a baby shower this week [I warned you, it was a very busy this week!]. Te’s Shred co-workers-turned-family threw us the cutest shower. We got our first diaper cake and Naomi got her first pair of (gold) Nike’s!! We are so thankful for the Shred team who has truly become family for us.



This week, the city of Chicago celebrated St. Patrick’s Day by dyeing the river green! I’ve never gone to see the green river so we decided this year was the year we would go check it out! I couldn’t believe how truly green it was!

Unfortunately, after our many festivities of week 33, Te came down with the flu during week 34. It was a very tough week because he was VERY sick so I was trying my best to care for him while not getting sick myself.

On top of Te being sick, we scheduled a vet appointment for Pumbaa. It. Was. Awful. Our cat HATES the vet. It’s truly the worst time of year when we have to take him. He gets angry and hisses and is very mean. I understand he’s scared, but jeeze!!! At any rate, we got his shots so he’s ready for baby. However, Te had to clean poop and pee off of Pumbaa’s butt when we got home because they kept him in the kennel to administer the shot, he got scared and let loose. I felt terrible because I couldn’t help since I have to avoid cat poop while pregnant. UGH! What a day it was. We both took a long nap after that event.

After an entire week under the weather (poor babe 😦 ) and an awful vet appointment, we were able to get out of the house that weekend and turn our frowns upside down. We went to see Beauty and the Beast! I’ve been dying to see the movie and for Valentine’s Day, Te ordered tickets for us to go. It was amazing. I cried at least 5 times in the theatre and twice when we left. I also indulged on delicious movie theatre popcorn which was incredible.

All in all, it was a happy ending to a very tough week.



This week was much easier. Slower pace and no illness! We always wanted to take a photo at this adorable coffee shop and of course, try their coffee. Well when we arrived, unfortunately the coffee shop was closed. 😦 We still took the picture then went back to our car. Before we left, we stopped in to Goddess & the Baker to get a latte and a scone. To our surprise, as we were waiting for our order, a ginormous (tall) guy walked in and right away, Te knew who he was [Paul Zipser from the Bulls]. Te went up to him and showed him a photo that Te took of him while at the Bulls game. They talked briefly and we let him get on his way. I would have had NO idea this guy played for the Bulls but thanks to hubby, we got to briefly meet him.



9 months pregnant. Woah. In the next 4 weeks (or 5-6.. but hopefully 4 :)) we will meet our little girl! This week was ALL about nesting. We got the changing table we’d been eyeing up and were able to organize everything in Naomi’s space. We gave our apartment a mini makeover and a deep clean since we aren’t sure when we will have time to do that again.

On the way to take our bump pic this week, we decided to stop at Cafe Tola to get an empanada snack. They had chicken mole empanadas which, if you know me, you know I LOVE mole. It was absolutely delicious! We decided to scrap our original photo plan and take our bump pic on the side of the Cafe Tola building because, well.. Hey Kanye! 👋🏽🤣

Also this week, Jaime & Tiffany came to Chicago and spent the day with us! It was so fun seeing them. They brought Naomi some of the most adorable gifts. She’s so blessed to have such thoughtful family! During their visit, we went to HopLeaf because it’s been on our “to-do” list forever. After a couple of drinks for the boys, we went to DMK for dinner and completely indulged in some of the city’s best burgers and fries. We don’t have much planned for the rest of the week so I’m excited for another slow, uneventful couple of days.

We are very close to meeting our princess. I may or may not have a “bumpdate” for you next week – I could possibly have a baby update!

Stay tuned!

Until next time..

ETC: It’s the Final Countdown

Hello friends! I hope you’ve had a great couple of weeks!

Since my last bump update, we have come quite a long way! From a scare of gestational diabetes to entering my third trimester which I’m calling,”the final countdown”. We were planning for a quiet month but we ended up doing a lot and it was great! Take a ride down memory lane with me as I look back on month 6 and look ahead towards month 7 and my final trimester of pregnancy!


Ahhh, the CTA. We had to take a picture on our trusty transportation system. 🙂 Yes, the one where you get asked for money by the needy, stand packed like a sardine on the way home from a long day at work (standing like that 7 months pregnant is super fun…), see people throw up on themselves/the floors of the train, and even get to sit in cars that smell of cigarettes, urine and feces. Who doesn’t love public transportation?!?! 🙂 In all seriousness though, I’m thankful for the CTA because despite the ridiculous things that may happen, it’s a safe way to get from point A to point B without having to pay for gas or sit in rush hour traffic.

Week 25 we celebrated the birthday of a friend’s one year old! It was such a fun party and made me realize that we are in for lots of fun birthday celebrations to come! Mama was feeling a bit cranky this week, and day in particular (sorry papa!) but the party was a fun way to forget about the stress and spend time with close friends. 

We also had brunch with my sissie and her new man at an awesome cereal bar in the city. It was amazing being able to catch up with her and enjoy a delicious breakfast! 


[I would just like to point out that it’s mid-January in this photo and although chilly, I’m capable of taking a photo outside without a coat – THANK YOU Chicago]. Week 26 started off with a baby registry event at Babies R Us. It was great! Lucky for us, we were the only people who showed up so we “won” a pack of pampers! Woot woot for free diapers 🙂 After the event, we went out with some friends for brunch at Orange in Roscoe Village and it was delicious. It was great to catch up with people we haven’t seen in forever! Papa also had his first paid photography gig after brunch and it went so well! Naomi and I are so proud of you babe!! ❤

During this week I had a couple of different lunch dates with some of my favorite ladies! It’s so fun getting together and hearing about what’s going on in everyone’s lives. I’m so proud of my ambitious friends!! 

Also this week, I found out a close friend of mine from work was leaving so that she could stay home with her daughter. It was so bittersweet because, although I am happy for her, selfishly, I want to keep her at work so we can still hang out! Now our work lunch dates will just transition in to play dates for our girls, so I guess it’s not so bad! 🙂

Lastly, I found out I failed my initial gestational diabetes test this week. It was really hard on me because I felt like my body was failing. I eat pretty clean still and I am still exercising 3-5 days per week. ‘How could this happen’, I thought? After the initial shock and terribly sad feelings, I learned that sometimes it just happens. No matter how healthy you are, sometimes the condition pops up strictly due to hormones and how your body is reacting to them, not necessarily because of what you’re eating or how active you are. That made me feel better. But I was SO scared to take the long gestational diabetes test because I absolutely H A T E getting my blood drawn…

..This is the look of a 27 week pregnant woman who HATES getting her blood drawn. This same woman who failed her first gestational diabetes test so she had to wake up at 6:30 AM on a Saturday to get her blood drawn FOUR different times; once in an already bruised arm/vein and three times in the other arm, over a three hour span of time. Thanks to God, I have an incredibly supportive and caring husband who sat with me in the hospital from 7 am until nearly 11 am waiting for me to get the blood draws. Thanks again to God for protecting me and Naomi from the condition they were testing for which was gestational diabetes [We passed!]. Despite the morning being one of my least favorite, once the test was over we went outside and it was nearly 50+ degrees! It was absolutely beautiful and it helped bring up my spirits a bit. I mean, can you deny the amazingness of a warm, sunny day in January in Chicago?! 

We also went to a friend’s house this week to watch the Packer game. It was great to see some old friends and catch up, but the Packers played awful and lost, which was very sad. 😦 There’s always next year, I guess! 


At 28 weeks, Naomi went to her first Bulls game. Although they also lost, it was a great time! [And no, Naomi is not bad luck for sports, if that’s what you’re thinking. Proof: the Cubs won the World Series after 100+ years of losing. It’s not her fault the Packers didn’t want to meet Trump and the Bulls couldn’t pull it together! 😉 ]

Also this past week, Te and I cat sat our second favorite kitty ever, Myko. It was so great to see him because last time we watched him he was SO tiny and now he looks like a big lion. This got me thinking about how I cannot wait for Naomi to meet Pumbaa… and well, #AllTheCats really. I will be converting her to a cat lady immediately. 🙂 

One last thing we did this week was go out to celebrate a friend’s birthday. After seeing her, Te and I went to dinner. We wanted to try this new burger place nearby but when we got there, it was filled with kids. We were contemplating leaving because we wanted an adult date night. I was frantically searching for a new place nearby that we could go even as the hostess was walking us to our table. The hostess laid down our menus at our table and before walking away said “your server, Naomi, will be right with you.” So inevitably we took that as a sign we should stay 🙂 I am glad we did; the burgers were great and the s’mores sundae was even better!

As I look back, month 6 was filled with many ups and downs. All in all, it was a great month with lots of love from friends and family and a few date nights sprinkled in!

As I look ahead to month 7, we’ve got a lot coming up! 

This coming weekend, we have our first baby shower in Wisconsin. I am so excited to see family and close friends who I have not seen in so long!! It’s going to be a great day to celebrate this little lady! 

February 21st is Te and I’s one year wedding anniversary which I am SO excited to celebrate!! This past year went so quickly and was filled with so many wonderful memories. I’m excited for forever with my beau.

At the end of the month we have another shower planned in Chicago and it’s at THEE best ice cream shop in the city. I’m pretty excited I passed my diabetes test so I can indulge a bit 🙂

So, we still have 12 weeks to go!  It’s not the final, final countdown BUT we’re getting close. We are now officially in the third trimester; the final trimester (aka so close). I’m getting more and more excited to meet this little girl every day but for now, I’m ok with waiting roughly 12 more weeks. 

Until next time..

ETC: We’re Getting Married!!!!!

AHHHH!! This has been quite an exciting weekend! Nearly four years ago, I met Te. And here we are today, preparing to spend the rest of our lives together. I couldn’t be more excited!

So how did it happen, you ask?

First, a little background.

1. Our first apartment in Chicago was on Damen Ave.

2. Right across from our first apartment there are several small business that recently opened (wine bar, yoga studio, art gallery, furniture store)

3. Te is an artist

4. When we first got together and discussed marriage, I told him he had to propose in Spanish, or I would say no 🙂

Ok, now you know some history. SO, Friday (October 23, 2015 🙂 ) I wasn’t feeling so hot. Te asked if I wanted to have a low key evening and try the new restaurant/wine bar by the house. I wasn’t sure my tummy was up for it, but I said I would try.

He met me once I got off the train and we began walking towards the wine bar for our 6:00 reservation. The art gallery is located right before the wine bar and Te suggested we stop in and take a look. At this point it was about 5:45pm and the sign on the window said the gallery closes at 5:00pm. Being the observant Oliver that I am, I said “but it’s closed”. He was halfway in the door when I heard a woman’s voice say “no, it’s ok, come in.” So we entered Gallery 19 on Damen ave.

FYI – 9 times out of 10 I would have resisted and said “No, let’s go. We have dinner reservations.” This time, for no reason in particular, I didn’t fuss; I just went with the flow.

So we’re in the gallery looking around. Te introduced himself to the owner and says he’s an artist, maybe he can get his work in the gallery someday. We’re walking around checking out the pieces. I keep saying “See, this is what we should hang on our walls!” (We’re always looking for new art to hang on our walls)

I walk down the last long hallway in the gallery and there’s three framed pieces. The last drawing on the wall is all red. I noticed a Gold necklace on the woman in the drawing with the name “Leah”(just like my name necklace) I turned to Te and said “Hey, cool! Its my name!” In that split second I realized, oh my gosh. It’s MY name.

I turned back towards the drawing on the wall to notice it looks like me. I quickly looked next to the photo where the artist’s name and title of the piece were placed and sure enough “Te Bates – “Hay una mujer, que domina mis sentidos con solo to car my piel”

I started crying and looked at Te. He stood next to me nodding his head affirmatively. I lost it. Tears of joy were flowing hard and I just couldn’t believe what was happening!

While he was standing there, he put on my FAVORITE song “Un Beso” by aventura. I heard la guitarra and lost it even more. With ‘Un Beso’ in the background, he said his very kind words about his love for me and how he wants to spend eternity with me. Then he dropped down on one knee and in Spanish, asked if I would marry him.

You guys. I was a MESS! But I said YES!

Then, we went to the wine bar to celebrate. After eating some small plates and drinking champagne, we decided we were still hungry. We went to the bar next door and ordered nachos and a buffalo chicken sandwich and split a second dinner for the evening. To celebrate even more, we ended our evening with a pint of Ben & Jerry’s ‘Half Baked.’ It was amazing.

A gold band with a Ruby, just what I had hoped for 😍

So now, here we are. Planning our wedding and our lives together forever.

I must say, finding a venue on a budget is a bit like job hunting right out of school. All of the beautiful venues want 5-7 years of experience  (aka thousands and thousands of dollars). All of the venues you like and can potentially afford are not hiring (they’re booked). And all of the available and affordable options don’t pay enough to get you out of your mom’s house (they’re not a good fit).

As we continue on this journey, I’m sure there’ll be more cheesy blog posts to come. I do not apologize in advance 🙂

Ps, here’s my song; Listen to it. Love it. Un Beso – Aventura

I hope you all have a great week!

Until next time..

Explore: Something More

When’s the last time you did something that really scared you? How often do you partake in events that will challenge you?

To be quite honest, I pretty much abide by the rules and play it pretty safe. I love to explore new things but a lot of times, my exploring is still within the borders of my comfort zone. Rarely do I make a drastic decision that doesn’t seem ‘safe’ in my mind. That being said, I’ve felt stuck.


I would try and fill my life with new places to see or things to do and it’s all great and I’m in love with adventure but after all was said and done, I still felt a little bit empty. I felt like I was missing something.I felt as if there were more out there and I was just driving along the safe route because it was easy and it was comfortable. So I decided to make a change. I decided that I wanted to find that ‘something more’. Venturing outside of my comfort zone is really difficult for me because I hate not being in control, I hate not being able to plan and I hate waiting for hindsight to prove if I made a good decision or not. I’m afraid of messing up.

In-spite of all of these objections, I quit my comfy, corporate job which was home to me these past two and a half years.



Everything I worked to build, I said goodbye to. It’s been two weeks since I left and I’ve already learned so much about myself, my faith in God and my ability to persevere that although I miss the comfort of my past, I am so excited to find the fulfillment I have been searching for, in my future.

I did have another job lined up to bounce in to but despite what you may think, it wasn’t necessarily a ‘step-up’. It’s more of an exploration move,.. a fulfillment move. With less of everything in this new position, I’ve learned that trusting God is key through it all. Trusting he will care for me and provide for me and trusting that He has a plan for me so I need not worry are the new insights I’ve gained through this ‘uncomfortable’ experience.

Typically, we think of ‘good’ or ‘happy’ as ‘comfortable’ but God sometimes puts us in uncomfortable situations to help mold us and grow us. I prayed so much before this decision to quit my job, and I went to seek counsel from many sources to help me decide. When I didn’t see or hear a clear sign, I was told ‘maybe this is God’s way of saying “you go ahead and choose, I’ll be here regardless with something better”‘


Through this, He’s taught me to just trust Him. Don’t get me wrong, it’s still a process to trust Him because I still like control and comfort. However, knowing that I can trust God because He has a plan and that it’s far greater than mine, it gives me such peace.

I made this move to explore the outer boundaries of my comfort zone. I thought to myself ‘If I stick with what I know then I’ll always be a little bit empty’. I want to feel so fulfilled in my line of work. I want to help others, be creative, switch up the routine, be active; there’s so much potential that I can bring to the table and I’ve got to work to seek out opportunities that can fulfill my desires. I must say, I truly did enjoy every experience I gained in my first ‘post college’ job. I learned so much and grew so much. I was given many opportunities for advancement and responsibility and it helped me become a better customer service-er, market-er, listen-er, Microsoft excel-er 🙂 . I do not regret anything. I am just craving fulfillment and in a city as big as Chicago, there’s gotta be something out there for me. There’s gotta be something more.

I challenge you to leave your comfort zone. Try something new. Maybe it’s not quitting your job but do something that scares you. It floods you with a refreshing boost of confidence and helps bring you closer than ever to your faith. It’s really amazing what we are capable of when we put our minds to it!!

I’ll leave you with this song to help cheer you on to find your something more.

Until Next Time..

Thank: The Horse Race

Where to go? What to do? What to choose?

Lately I have just had so many ‘to-do’s on my mind that I feel as if I am not sure where to even begin. It’s almost as if I have a line of ideas, stabled like horses. When I wake up in the morning, the gun goes off and BOOM, each ‘horse’ [idea] takes off as fast as it can. The ideas race like horses, faster and faster around this track, which is my mind. All of these ambitious hopes and dreams just racing against one another, trying to win my attention; trying to win the race.

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I think it’s great to have ambition and ideas and hopes and dreams. However, I think it’s hard to decide what those should be. Meaning, where should I focus my time. ‘What do I really want?’ Because of this uncertainty about where to focus my time or what I really want, it becomes hard to find the time to fully explore each option. At which point, I get overwhelmed.

This internal horse-race going on in my brain is just draining me. It’s as if I’ve gambled all of my money away. A little on each horse, yet I’ve won nothing back so I cannot continue betting and eventually, the horses will just stop. At this point, I feel lost.

Perhaps this is my pre-quarter life crisis (I say pre-quarter life crisis because I’m owning age 24 until I have to turn it over to the big two-five). At this age does anyone know which horse they want to bet on? Does anyone at any age ever bet on the right horse? I think maybe some people get ‘lucky’ and they were either born into knowing which dream to follow because of a family business or an exceptional talent like singing or acting.

And for the rest of us? I guess we just have to pick a couple of horses and bet away until we find one that really excels for us. And that betting period should be exciting! You’re learning about yourself. You’re making mistakes. You’re figuring out what works and what doesn’t. Somehow though, this betting period for me, it’s scary.

I’m not a great gambler. I mean, buy me a $2 scratch-off and I’m all in (serious thrill-seeker, I know) But honestly, gambling with big, life decisions? I’d rather not. It’s so easy to dream and say ‘I wish’, ‘I want’, ‘I’d rather’ but sometimes those wishes, wants and rather’s come only after we take a gamble.


I guess this is what our 20’s are for right? Gambling and figuring out which horse we want to be the jockey of. Which idea or dream to pursue. And if that horse breaks a leg, we then decide to either bandage up the sprain and keep going or jump to a different horse and try that dream, right?

Through all of the discomfort of not knowing which horse to choose, there’s got to be a way to remain comfortable. When it all becomes too much we can break down so easily. I can break so easily sometimes. I crumble and fall, at which point, the horses just stop. No dream is being pursued because it all becomes too much, I just break down.

Luckily, if this is something you’re also feeling, there’s a free solution to help you find comfort while your horses are racing. Be in prayer with The Lord. God can pick you right back up. Thanks to God, my horses started running again today. Even though it’s been a crazy couple of weeks and sometimes I feel like I’m not accomplishing anything, I look back and just think WOW. Horse #3, #5, #7 and #10 are all really making some great progress. Slow and steady, but progress nonetheless. I think it’s very vital to reflect on how far each horse has come over a period of time. Especially when you’re feeling lost or stuck. Just look back and reflect on how far you’ve come. Progress is progress, no matter the size, it’s the effort that counts and we must remember that. Thank you God for getting my horses back up and running.

Additionally, I must mention that I have been blessed with truly an amazing support system on this earth which is my boyfriend, Te. He’s always pushing me to keep going, supporting each additional (sometimes crazy) horse [idea] which I add to the stable, helping me through the inevitable pre-quarter life crisis meltdowns and constantly reminding me to seek prayer and guidance in my decisions. I am so blessed.


So whatever horses are in your stable, racing around day after day, trying to help you figure out where to go, what to do, what to choose, look at it as a blessing. Don’t gamble without getting anything in return. The way to make some of that ‘money’ back, is through prayer. Ask God for guidance and comfort when things just don’t seem like they are making any progress. He wants your horses to keep running. He will recharge you so you can continue to dream. So one, or maybe 3, of your horses can just take off and lead you where you should go. Around the track God wants you to be racing.

Until next time..

Thank: Put Him First

STRESS. Happens all of the time, right? Stressed about work or sitting in traffic or your weight or money. Stress is a killer, literally. I hate when I’m stressed!

I tend to get stressed often because I over-think things ALL. OF. THE. TIME. Honestly, my mind never stops. It reminds me of the computer when you don’t shut it down, you just close the lid; it may ‘idle’ for a few hours but it truly never stops. I’m always planning a budget or a meal or my day/week/month/year/5 years from now/40 years from now (no lie). I don’t think there are many moments throughout my day where I’m not thinking about what’s coming up next. It can be a blessing and a curse for sure. Where it becomes a curse is the moment it begins to consume me.

Over the past couple of weeks I would say it is beginning to get to that point of consumption. I have a lot of plans for my very near future that involve some changes, however they are not necessarily changes I can control. Nor is the path a clear one. So with the control out of my hands as I wander down a foggy path, what happens you ask? Cue the over-thinking, anxiety and stress.

I begin to think of every angle and start to ask myself a million questions: Will my plan work? What happens if it doesn’t? What will my family think? Do I really want this? Will it effect my unborn children’s college fund in 20 years? Ok, Really? Yep – I’ve gone there. All of these thoughts, and more, just because I don’t have a definite plan.

Typically, it’s at this point where my stomach is in knots, my hands are sweating and my head is pounding because I’ve physically exhausted myself with worry. It’s at this point where I realize I need somewhere to turn because I can’t do this alone. It’s at this point where I realize my priorities are not at all in order and so, I need to pray. I need to put God first again.


All of these worries are consuming me in the way that God should be consuming me. In these moments I am not putting God first in my life and that is why things are not working out. Readjusting my focus back on to God feels so good. When I begin to thank God for all that I have in my life and spend time focusing on my relationship with the Lord instead of my own plans I feel overwhelmed with peace. It’s amazing what can happen when I let go of my plans and give my worries over to Him.

There’s a worship song we sing on Sunday’s some weeks that is just my absolute favorite song because for one, it is just a really cool sounding song. And for two, it reminds me continue to have faith even when my feet WILL fail because He has never failed me and He will never fail me. It’s an awesome reminder to call out to him when I’m sad, mad, worried, depressed, anxious, unsure, happy, grateful, excited, thankful, etc. because He is always there to listen and work things out for me. It reminds me to trust in God even when the waters are rough and I may not understand.

My favorite verse from the song Oceans by Hillside United

‘Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and you won’t start now’

I’m taking this time to refocus, readjust my priorities and pray that God take my anxieties, assure me everything will be okay, the fog will clear and I’ll come out a stronger person.

What causes you worry? Where do you turn? If you aren’t currently turning to God, I encourage you to try. It’s really easy and extremely rewarding. He will take care of you and calm your soul. God is so good and He is with you always.

Until next time..